We're trying to get our own place.

I can't stop picturing a small shack type house, with minimal decor - just him, our cat, and I.

Spring, summer, even autumn nights would be spent with the windows open, a warm breeze whispering through. We don't wear much, if anything, at all. Winters we would stay bundled up together, fill the house with candle light and soft, classical music. 

We bump hips in the kitchen, preparing a dinner that appears small, but is a feast in our eyes. Our dishes are a pretty pale blue.

We convert the only bedroom into an office, so I can have a quiet place to work. The living room would serve as our bedroom as well, containing a futon, just in case we're entertaining.

The bathroom would be done in a soft lilac and smell like vanilla and lavender.

We'd have a small background, complete with a flower and vegetable garden, maybe even a chicken or two for fresh eggs every morning.

The closest house is still miles away.

It'd be our own little world, where nothing, no one, can get to us. ♥

Why do I do the things that I do? Why do I act the way that I do? Why so many downs with fewer and fewer ups? 

I can't say I don't hurt you on purpose, that would be a complete lie.

Off to the beach tomorrow, until Monday.
I'm so ready to get away from "real life" for awhile.
I'm looking most forward to not being woke up each morning by an alarm clock. I'm very close to smashing that thing to bits.

On this little getaway I'm hoping to: find inspiration, get closer to God, to myself, to my husband, to my brother, to my best friend. I'm hoping to meditate with waves crashing in front of me, their soothing sounds filling my ears. I want to come back feeling rested, refreshed, &renewed.

People who will not let me do my job frustrate me to no end.

It's not my fault you're up late, trying to order something off of the tv.
It's not my fault I have company rules and policies to follow.
/and no matter what you say, whether you tell me I need to or do not need to do something, if I'm suppose/not suppose to do it, then I'll either do/not do it.  You're not the one paying me. You don't get to call the shots on certain things.

Whatever enjoyment you get out of treating someone like they are lower than dirt, I hope it's worth it. I will have piece of mind, though. I may be pissed right now, but that will subside. You, on the other hand, well... just remember - what goes around, comes around.

I have decided to go back to school and obtain my BS in Psychology with a minor in Christian Counseling.

I have been wanting to do this for quite some time and see no reason in not going after it.